I got speaking to someone earlier, who was so despondent with how hard life can be and was in a “whats the point” mode.
His whole body was slumped over (almost like a wii character that has just lost a game! ) back curved forwards, head weighing heavily through the neck and sitting deep into the shoulder blades…
Whilst speaking, I noticed him finding every barrier and every reason as to not to put effort into achieving his goals….. all of this despondency, de motivated responses was wrapped with fears, fear of failing, fear of not being able to make changes, fears of being in a rut for the rest of his life – fear of …is this it? is this what my life has to offer?
It takes so much effort, on many different levels, to make steps forward – to let go of your safe rut – the safeness of justifying not making an effort by repeating regularly to anyone that will listen “things don’t work out for me” and in turn this giving you permission to just stay where you are and although you don’t like where your are – at least you know where you are! and that can feel comfortable even if it does feel dissatisfying and you don’t particularly like yourself for it……!
Taking those steps - especially those first steps can feel so lonely, so isolating, so vulnerable - it can feel like stripping back all that we know (and dislike) to step forward into a dark valley - which will bring what? how do… Click To Tweet
Taking those steps – especially those first steps can feel so lonely, so isolating, so vulnerable – it can feel like stripping back all that we know (and dislike) to step forward into a dark valley – which will bring what? how do we know? there are no guarantees!!!
And then theres those around you – what if they don’t like you stepping forward? what if you become alone?
Every person that I have spoken to about this journey – and its something that I believe is on offer to all of us, at some time in our life….. has gone through long periods of dissatisfaction, restlessness and eventually feeling like they don’t fit in their rut anymore – like they have outgrown it and it can feel like trying to fit into those jeans from 15 years ago that just no longer fit you – but you keep on trying to squeeze….
They have experienced fears, vulnerabilities and outright times of being scared of the uncertainty, of not knowing what comes next.
Every person that I have spoken to about this journey has also stated that once they have started to travel into this, there is no going back. They have said how much better it is, to allow yourself to be you – to be true to you and to feel alive in your life as opposed to existing in another.
Its all food for thought…….
So my journalling questions for this week are;
How do you find your courage?
What does courage look like to you – what fears come up around this? what resistance have you got towards it?
Explore your journals – with writing, colour, collages, pictures, and paintings….. express yourself in a meaningful way for you – allow your time with your journal to be the time that you are really authentic with yourself and check in how that that feels
Till next time